when the room goes dark,
I lay and stare at the ceiling,
trying to ignore the light
from the hallway—your light,
that you insist stays on.
but it holds my attention,
pulling eyes and head and
thoughts of moments
with you, and
I can go to sleep now.
Category: Poems
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when the room goes dark
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my heart tells me you’re missing,
my heart tells me you’re missing,
but my eyes see you right here.those small moments
make up the biggest parts of me
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as I swim inside these eyes
as I swim inside these eyes,
I hope our
gravity
keeps me here—
pressed against a chair,
swaying to
my heart beat,
trying not
to wrestle free
and float away.words lose meaning when you
can’t hear them and
have none to read—
when life shows you language
is nothing more than a layer,
a common interpreter of
yours and mine and many unique
experiences
and feelings
paid in microseconds.just like that,
we’re 13 years in
and
exactly where we
wanted to be:
staring into our eyes
and seeing the decades ahead,
and those we’ve learned from to
be exactly where we
wanted to
be:
able to close our eyes
and know we’ll wake up
together, still.
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it’s 3am,
it’s 3am,
and i’ve moved my writing
apps
to the second page,
so I can swipe once more
before tapping this glass
or
stopping to let the words find me
while I
sit and stare, and watch gravity
keep me here.
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you’re the reason
I don’t know what i’m crying for.
what do I want changed?
what do I want new?
I want to remember who we were
when ends never met and
I hurt you with my anger.
I want to hold you now
and stop myself then.
you deserve what we have,
and i’m not sure I thought we’d
ever get here.
you loved me behind the counter
of a Walmart, of a Blockbuster;
you drove me and picked me up
an hour each way.
you are my reason and my rock
and I don’t give a shit about headshots
if you ain’t in em with me, cuz
you’re the reason people want em.
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one, two,
time tells me it’s moving,
while i’m stuck here bleeding out.
trying to find that last second
then one more
and maybe another or…
a few thousand, i’m not sure,
but i’ll start counting now.