I repeat the same actions

I repeat the same actions
in hope of finding that
which may alter my
ever-repeating path.

Am I– I am addicted
to the repetition, though
need a bit of change
to feel in control (also
part of the addiction).

I close, open, reload, refresh
for changes made by others
as if my own changes
matter not– for I am not
as clever, no!, nor witty
as they who ‘ve found
their calling in
the written word.

Is insanity insanity when the
outcome remains the same,
though the substance of
the moments preceding
differ slightly until they
seem a new day?– same
as the last, I assure you!