spider’d legs
smooth-tapping in consistent beat
of eyes turning
falling by–
tap, tap, tap,
tap–
first finger figuring rhythm of own
i
peaked
last night
as
you
slept in arms grown numb but
warm;
i peaked at
your lips,
pucker’d in thought and lost in air;
i peaked
as
your lungs
rose breasts,
drew back,
rose again;
i
peeked
at your darkened thoughts
as lids played host
to
eyes
gone rambling;
i
peeked
in to see
heaven
adorned with shadowed-sheets whispering
‘do not leave us
once sun returns;
do not cast us from
your hips
a mountain of us made’
the center of my universe,
but still surrounding me,
that gentle harmony
of Beauty
sings against my mind,
hinting at her existence
but still silent to my heart
until–
her eyes,
throwing their veil
of twilight
crashing into my daze,
shatter every picture of perfection
and rebuild them to fit her ways.
stuck between shelves
of history—of romance–
she stares beyond me;
I can tell by her glances
of reality, short, but there.
a thousand words an instance
each falling from her lips/her hair
as if to say
“I’m here, can’t you see me?”
And I do,
with eyes wide
to try,
desperately,
to hold onto her brilliance;
the brilliance of a never-darkening eclipse,
halo’d by those rays of thoughts
that,
somehow,
leave her beauty
to be put,
unheard,
in my ink.
“A rose may wither,
a moon may slither,
a sun may fall,
and the stars may dither,
but constant are these words
that will never live up to Beauty.”
take with you
every memory
of whispers, of
wishes, of
movies let run
while we focused on..
other things.
take from me
every memory
of the days we shared
out of the snow,
in each others’ arms
without knowing
today would arrive.
take with you
every hand we gripped
to bring us closer
from eternity.
take with you
all i see
for it all reminds
me of you..
our time together,
morning to morning,
is too much to bear
on these
simple shoulders
of a
simple man
not worth remembering.
when the time comes
i want you to know
i never walked out
i never said goodbye
i never cried
since you passed on..
too many smiles
haunt me daily
to know that
sadness
could be
with your memory.
trembling,
i can’t see tomorrow
without you before me,
without heaven with us,
without the sun to shine behind us
on our way
back
home.
they said once it passes
it passes..
leaving me here,
you there,
and loneliness abound.
i watered your
roses
tonight,
hoping you’d stem from them..
remember
when the night lasted till day woke us?
remember
when the day stood
till the moon guided us?
remember
every second past
the dawn we grew old
and finally
let the world in
on our infinity?
riding
on the rays
of yesterdays
see through the clouds
through the rain in the distance–
passed us by–
laying beside Forever
i see your eyes
seducing Infinity,
reaching out your smile
to let me hold
on to the only thing
keeping me breathing,
that kept us immortal
before mortality caught up.
wrote this some short time after september 11th, 2001. not really for that occasion.. more of a tribute to the one left or leaving.
to be told i am worthless/
useless/
unloved
is liberating.
without those
cuffs of roles unfulfilled
i can
be uncaring–
that
cold’d wave of wind clinched-less
in palm
and
belly of fingers.
how pale turns moon
when your eyelids close
and your servant, i, can see you dreaming–
within subtled twitch
your lips turn rose
and left am i,
the startled spy upon your ceiling
how
round those eyes
the
roundest eyes
that arm
jerk-twisted and showing
those ribs
those ribs cleaned
and caving
those eyes;
how round
those eyes
swollen and stationed